Have you ever feel so msad at the same time?

Let me explain, i know, in love romantic relationship, not only happines, bombing, but there is uncomfortable feeling also. Like jealousy, sad, disappoint, etc. 

But there is a problem that i cant really change, if i change it must really big, like i told to him  my condition about hang out, even with my friends. My parents kinda disagree if i go out. Look alike i'm child right?. My sister condition even worse, when it comes to 'alhasanat' they just feel disgusted, and just delete the jhs memory. I mean why they parenting like that? . 

I havent finish my paper, and i cant really going everywhere, being house'child' aka house'wife,' . I need quality time also i know, not just him, cause i love him also. And i told him to saving money for our future... But idk how much is it until now... And there is me also must saving money for our wedding, marriage afterlife....